I am more amazed every day....

JJ amazes me! Not that I am surprised by it, I am used to being around babies and toddlers, I have been for most of my life. But never my own! And to see the subtle changes every day, I am truely amazed!

He was practically running with his walker toy last night, back and forth across the basement floor. He only fell once or twice. Of course, I have to stop helping him get up when he falls or he will never figure it out for himself. But, can just holding the walker so he can pull himself back up be so bad? I am an enabler, and I know it. And if I want my child to be independant, I need to let him learn to do things by himself. So far, he has learned that well, despite me, so I am not too worried. I can just see him taking off across the room one day soon!

He constantly babbles too....I love listening to him. Depending on what he is doing, he changes his tone, inflection, etc. If he is talking to the cat, or the cat is anywhere near him (so I assume he is talking to it) he gets a soft singsongy voice, so sweet. If he is talking to daddy, and daddy is watching tv and not paying attention, he gets that impatient voice.....which gets louder and louder with each attempt for attention. And constant babble.....I swear, if we could just understand him, we would have the answer to the oil crisis, homelessness, and world hunger!

I swear he said UP yesterday morning when he wanted me to pick him up. Ann heard it too, we looked at each other as if to ask, did we really hear that, and at the same time, we both said, yep, then laughed! And last night, I could have sworn he said "all done" or some form of it. He is learning so fast! I still work on signs with him, and he is getting more, sort of, which hopefully will help with his constant "AHHHHH".

He amazes me!

Have you ever....

Seen the movie Family Man? I haven't seen it in a while, but whenever I get one of those, "I wonder what my life would have been like" feelings, I think of that movie. In case you haven't seen it, Nicolas Cage plays a guy who gets a chance to see what his life would have been like if he had made 1 different choice along the way. Quite amazing!

Some people can't understand why I don't want to get out more and do things, etc. My sil doesn't get why I don't want to go with her to scrapbooking classes, etc. I will tell you why...because I want to spend time with my son! And my husband of course, but mostly, my son. LOL He is the light of my life! I don't think that anyone who has struggled to have a child like we did (and believe me, I know many who have struggled much harder) understand the true reason why I wouldn't want to be off doing a million other things.

JJ and I went for a walk last night.....when we got back to our house, he wanted to see the trees in the front yard. We have pine trees (long needle) and a maple tree, so we were looking at the trees. He felt the needles from the pine tree tickle his hand and he giggled. He ran his hand over the gnarled bark of the maple tree, felt the sharp edge where one of the branches had been trimmed, and his eyes were wide with wonder. Those are the things I love about being a mom! I love watching him explore every part of his world! I know I won't always be this enamored...like when he has just dumped the orange juice on the floor because 'I can do it myself' or when he has just plugged the toilet with an entire roll of toilet paper, or when he has driven the car into the garage door.....but those moments are hopefully a long long time from now!

I am waiting and watching eagerly for him to take his first steps, and yet, I know when he does, there will be a little less dependance on mommy and daddy...and a little more insistance on doing things 'myself'. That is ok....independance is a good thing. Remind me of that later, ok? ;oD