Have you ever....

Seen the movie Family Man? I haven't seen it in a while, but whenever I get one of those, "I wonder what my life would have been like" feelings, I think of that movie. In case you haven't seen it, Nicolas Cage plays a guy who gets a chance to see what his life would have been like if he had made 1 different choice along the way. Quite amazing!

Some people can't understand why I don't want to get out more and do things, etc. My sil doesn't get why I don't want to go with her to scrapbooking classes, etc. I will tell you why...because I want to spend time with my son! And my husband of course, but mostly, my son. LOL He is the light of my life! I don't think that anyone who has struggled to have a child like we did (and believe me, I know many who have struggled much harder) understand the true reason why I wouldn't want to be off doing a million other things.

JJ and I went for a walk last night.....when we got back to our house, he wanted to see the trees in the front yard. We have pine trees (long needle) and a maple tree, so we were looking at the trees. He felt the needles from the pine tree tickle his hand and he giggled. He ran his hand over the gnarled bark of the maple tree, felt the sharp edge where one of the branches had been trimmed, and his eyes were wide with wonder. Those are the things I love about being a mom! I love watching him explore every part of his world! I know I won't always be this enamored...like when he has just dumped the orange juice on the floor because 'I can do it myself' or when he has just plugged the toilet with an entire roll of toilet paper, or when he has driven the car into the garage door.....but those moments are hopefully a long long time from now!

I am waiting and watching eagerly for him to take his first steps, and yet, I know when he does, there will be a little less dependance on mommy and daddy...and a little more insistance on doing things 'myself'. That is ok....independance is a good thing. Remind me of that later, ok? ;oD